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Citizens of the Galaxy: Grassfest, Topanga and Rooftop raves

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Tuesday July 27 Im sitting in a friend of a friend’s yard smoking weed and cigarettes and sitting on a blanket next to a tree wrapped in lightbulbs. My past weekend was intense in a good and bad way like… ok So friday july 23 i wake up super duper early and finish packing for the desert. My friend Alai pulls up in her 1985 chevy van and we throw everything in. I have my huge zebra print adidas backpack and a bag my friend designed with plushie keychains and a raccoon tail hanging from the strap and my yoga mat and my fluffy boots and my $7 goodwill adidas. I light a joint and we’re on the road.   The drive is hot and shaky and filled with music and weed and arizona iced tea and chex mix and when we pull up to the location its pretty dead but we decide it's because it's still early. Our camp is cute. I set up my tent and the wind keeps knocking it over. We get a beautiful fucking sunset that night and as I start to take some shrooms and smoke more weed the night gets really weir...

Shopping sprees and I have to pee, anxiety like Godzilla

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I wish i could live more in the present, less worrying about the future or ruminating on the past. i wish that in moments that are important or special to me i could just be there and enjoy and remember it instead of being anxious about whats to come, like a giant monster looming over the city or something! i want to remember good days, like when i was little and i would blink once extra hard and click! i would capture that moment forever (in my mind at least) or having more significance associated with my material items rather than just mindlessly collecting and accumulating. like my ostrich littlest pet shop i’d keep at the edge of my desk in 2nd grade after school math tutoring, that day mom brought taco bell was the best. i’d look at the ostrich, the bean burrito resting next to it and it would say “it’s okay, amelia. this stuff is hard..” and i would say "i know, i wish i could just run out of here." or the frankie stein doll i saved up all my hostess money to get at tar...