Shopping sprees and I have to pee, anxiety like Godzilla
I wish i could live more in the present, less worrying about the future or ruminating on the past. i wish that in moments that are important or special to me i could just be there and enjoy and remember it instead of being anxious about whats to come, like a giant monster looming over the city or something! i want to remember good days, like when i was little and i would blink once extra hard and click! i would capture that moment forever (in my mind at least) or having more significance associated with my material items rather than just mindlessly collecting and accumulating. like my ostrich littlest pet shop i’d keep at the edge of my desk in 2nd grade after school math tutoring, that day mom brought taco bell was the best. i’d look at the ostrich, the bean burrito resting next to it and it would say “it’s okay, amelia. this stuff is hard..” and i would say "i know, i wish i could just run out of here." or the frankie stein doll i saved up all my hostess money to get at tar...