Good days and coolness...PUBG and half-eaten mangos..



heyo heyo heyyy

its been an on and off coupla weeks. it feels like im caught in the middle of the past and the future which is basically like uhhhhh the present but its like im stuck in limbo waiting and waitingwaiting waiting for something exciting to happen. i think im just constantly looking for something to look forward to or to give me a reason to live. i think i need to get more in my body and ive been telling myself this for like the past six months constantly writing it in my journal and stuff but i think i just need to realize that there shouldnt be one reason or one thing i keep going for. i think being alive and existing should be enough right? it feels like existing is all i have but i have my animals and i have my small handful of lovely friends and my family and stuff. i have my beautiful collection of clothes and music and the awesome la weather we’ve been getting. i have the westside breeze and the smell of the city at night and the mangos i toss in my neighbor’s trash and winning at uno and the rare moments when i make my brother laugh. i feel like thats probably good enough for me.

im just gonna show some pix from a few very nice days ive been having. from last saturday which was an awesome day for me i went to a cool cafe in midcity with my mom so we could talk through the rly stressful fight we had the day before and it was actually super pleasant and my adhd meds we’re making me feel pretty great.

actually from the day before on our way to get nails done in ktown

my weird fancy vegan bowl and horchata latte..

our pedis and sandals lolls


Then i got boba and went to sid’s house and we got some tatsu ramen at sawtelle and pulled an all nighter playing pubg which was bizarre idk how that game is so addicting and we literally spent like i swear over three hrs until 7-8am losing every match and didnt stop until we won omg also her fish died in the middle of the night rip rack:(💔




new bayangz

new shoeyoz..


these few are from a couple days ago when i cut myself some terf bangs and my jeremy scott teddy sneaks came in!! so awesome i was feeling like hot shit that day. 

i also felt like hot shit yesterday when i took my adhd meds again and got all cute to go to a screening of reality bites at the roosevelt hotel’s pool.


screenshot from a tiktok i made before going to the screening lol wish i could
take off the annoying watermark but whatevs showing off da dior lipp

Best spot in the hous! plus the david hockney painted pool=))



tried to take a pic of the sign and the palms but it came out so blurry lol here it is anywayz


lmao me trying to look cute but the damn cam flips the pic and makes it look awk

mom and i💘 and i screenshotted instead so it wouldnt flip but just made the phone all shaky



so fun!! the movie was boring af but the mimis and i swam around and had a lot of fun. couldnt sleep last night tho i still had sm energy thts when i wrote all this actually so hi future amelia hru hi past amelia how are-SIKE! u cant answer me ahahah ok so yeah those were some good days i’m going to universal studios tm with my bestest friend in the whole world so i will make sure to take some cool photos goodbye!


















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